Talking to myself

ok since ure not online im just going to talk
was just feeling a bit alone....
havent really spoken to anyone properly today...
havent spoken to ppl i generally talk to once im home
today morning i thought id come home and read and just be...
but i didnt get to do that cause im too tired to read
i msgd like 6 ppl when i reached home...
i think thats cause i really just miss hvaing someone to care for me...to wait till i get home just to tell me goodnight
so im sad...and alone...
i realize something funny....
most of the world is alone
most people are alone and are constantlylooking for someone to make them feel less alone...wat a funny world we live in
we all want company but we wont give each other company


Sent at 1:05 AM on Thursday
i guess thats why they say when u come into the world alone and you leave the world alone.
either ways.....im sad today...but today will go...tomm will come...and i'll be happy again...
another funny thing i realized about myself
i get sadder as the day gets over....i start out rather happy and end rather sad...
cause with night come the acute sense of being alone...which is probably why im always up for going out on any night
i need to start appreciating my freedom...its wat i wanted...
but its pointless if i dont know what to do with it.
goodnight
sweet dreams

Freedom

Theres this thing about being on a swing that sets me free.. I feel like I can fly....I push my self higher and higher...and for those few moments, nothing else matters....there is nothing that can stop me from touching the sky...i feel free...

I like the sky, i like the mountains, i like the feel of the wind on my face ...i can talk to them...or not talk to them if i dont want to...they are silent...they listen and dont say a word...they demand no commitment..nothing tying you down...you can go to them as you please and leave whenever you want...no questions asked...there are no strings attached...there is freedom.

Freedom is one of the 4 things i want from life...the things that define my existence...for a lack of better word i continue to call them 'things'...they are like principles...those that define my being.....

Im testing the waters of freedom...its incomplete...there are barriers, restrictions...but the catalyst was added in my life...it pushed me over the edge and now i have to learn to fly....or else i come crashing down and live the rest of my life with broken dreams....

Im still learning the definition of freedom...it changes as i understand more...its the freedom to let my self experience life...allowing my self to break out of the rat race and be alive...we didnt evolve to loose our roots...I wasnt born to be a rat!

Judgment Day

Fact : People Judge
Fact : People don’t like being judged

Myth : I don’t judge

Truth : I try not to judge

Quote : Never a judge a book by its cover

Its this funny thing that human beings do...we look at a person and automatically form an opinion about them in 60 seconds....from the way they look, the way they are dressed, to they way they walk to their smile or lack of it. Logically, we don’t know anything about a person in 60 seconds, but yet we form an opinion as to the kind of person they are, what values they hold, and even if we like them or not.

I’ve learnt on more than one occasion, the first impression is always wrong...the person I judge as shallow is actually philosophical...the person I judge as untrustworthy proves to be the most trustful...the person I judge as immature actually knows more about life than I do...the nice girl next door might actually be manipulative and scheming....all this I learn months later...after iv spent more than 60 days in their company...and still I may not know everything...

Then what makes us judge...without knowing anything....what gives us the right...the authority to frame an image of a person without taking the effort to know them?

What if you meet a person for the first time...they were just given some terrible news...then you met them..they didn’t smile...judgment : unfriendly, unapproachable,rude...that person on a normal day might be funny,caring,loving but you wont ever know that cause you've already made your judgment

I for one dont like being judged. I believe im so many different people in one that you cant really judge me unless you take the effort to know me...I seem rude...im actually caring...i seem cold...im actually loving...i seem snotty...well...im egoistic for good reasons..

so I try not to judge....to know and accept...love and let be...believe in the universal truth that there is good in everyone.There are people like me out there...they dont judge...they know me...they accept me and love me...they are my friends...

But for those who keep judging....well I dont want to know them....and I wont...cause my first impression will be a bad one...they will never know what they are missing ;)